As an incest survivor, I have often found it remarkable that I am able to love people. I am amazed that I am loved by my husband of 30 years and that I can love him back. I am amazed that I have loved my sons with an undying love since the moment I knew they had been conceived. I broke the cycle of abuse and gave my sons a loving home and a happy childhood. But, how did I know how to love them?
We love because God first loved us. (1 John 4:19)
All those years that I thought I was alone, I was not alone. All those years that I thought I was unloved, I was loved. I didn’t know God, but God knew me. All of my life I have been known. I find that absolutely astounding.
O Lord, you have probed me and you know me. You know when I sit and stand: you understand my thoughts from afar. (Psalm 139:1-2)