I am working on my witness talk for Magnificat next Saturday. You would think it would be easy. I have told my story before. I have written and published a book about it just in the past 6 months. But here I am, a few days to go, and I am having a hard time.
I have to keep reminding myself that it is never really over. To share my story about incest is difficult because I have to re-live it. And I do not care how many times I have shared this stuff, it still hurts. It is still hard to throw it out there for people to hear.
I am still tempted to say, Aren't we done yet? Am I not finished with this healing stuff and this hurting stuff?
No. I am not done. Oh, I see light and healing and joy in my life. I have come a long way. But as long as there is pain, there is still healing to be done.
And so I tell my story again. Yes, it is hard. But it is real. And that is good. That is very, very good.