Thursday, June 25, 2009

Control

I like to be in control. It is how I feel safe. If I can control the world I am in, then no one can hurt me.
I am not in control right now. In fact, losing control over this situation with my father has spilled over into losing control at work and at home. I am very aware of not having any control over anything.
I am learning to go with the flow and live minute to minute. Which is a good thing in a way. I think.

10 comments:

Cindy said...

Good luck. For me, it's the mantra of the Serenity Prayer. Mainly I have to come to a screeching halt and self talk, "Cindy, what is it about yourself and your reaction that you can control"

Colleen said...

Cindy, thanks for reminding me about the Serenity Prayer. and I like that self talk you do.

Marj aka Thriver said...

Yes, being present and being in the moment is huge. I'd take that as BIG progress. You're right, it is very much related to letting go...letting go of control.

BTW: I'm sending out those prayers.

Colleen said...

Marj, thank you for your encouraging comment and your prayers! I need them, for sure. God bless.

Patricia Singleton said...

I used to be a control freak thinking that I could control everything in my world. Like you I thought that would keep me safe. When I started going to Al-Anon meetings and Adult Children of Alcoholics meetings, I discovered that thinking I was in control was just an illusion. God is the only one in control. The Serenity Prayer helped me to learn that the only thing that I could control was myself and my reactions. Circumstances and other people are out of my control. I am back in Al-Anon and boy am I glad. My emotions were over the top this week. Going to an Al-Anon meeting helped me to stop making my husband the target of my anger this week.

You are making such progress this week. I know it doesn't feel like it right now but you are.

April_optimist said...

Have you heard anything? No, we can't control the world though it's so hard to stop trying. Big, big (((((((hugs))))))).

Colleen said...

Patricia, you are right. I do not feel like I am making much progress. Everything happened last night. I am trying to deal with it. But your words are comforting and affirming. Thanks

April, thanks for those hugs. Your words are also affirming. I heard last night and will be posting about it once I get my words together. It has been tough. But you and all my friends are helping.

God bless all of you.

VICKI IN AZ said...

Just Be Real said...

My dear one, I completely understand......

((((Colleen))))
Listening

Colleen said...

Vicki, thanks.

JBR, thanks for hugs and for listening!