Many people have been telling me I need to read the book The Shack, by Wm. Paul Young. I am not into fiction too much but after the 20th person told me about it, I decided I had better read it.
I am only about one-third of the way through it, but at this point I am hooked. As soon as God entered the picture, that was it for me. Then this morning, I read this line from God: "If you let me, Mack, I'll be the papa you never had." Immediately, tears sprang to my eyes.
For years I had a problem relating to God as Father. Since my father was my abuser, I could really only look at God as Creator. Then one day I heard a priest give a talk about God as Father. And he talked about how Jesus called him 'Abba,' which could be translated as daddy. Or papa.
And I thought, I want that. I want to be able to call God - Daddy. Papa. And I realized at that moment (and I guess I would call it grace), that I'd had a father all along.
It was the beginning of a new relationship with God. I began to see him truly as a father. And if I needed reminding of how important that has become to me, the line in the book took care of that. And I believe that is what God was saying to me that day I heard that priest talk: If you let me, I will be the papa you never had.
Thank you, Papa.