Monday, June 22, 2009

Prayers Needed

I will need lots of prayers this week. Prayers for strength and prayers for peace and prayers for healing. I know many of you know what this is like, waiting for the world to cave in around you.
That is where I am.
Waiting.
And praying.

10 comments:

Just Be Real said...

"Heavenly Father, we just give You praise now and we thank You what You are going to be doing in our dear sister's life. We come in agreement that You give her strength and courage to face whatever it is that she needs. In Your precious Son's name, amen!"

Karinann said...

Colleen,
I will keep you in my prayers. May God grant you every grace and blessing you stand in need of.

HeartfeltHeartLook said...

St. Michael, the Archangel defend us in battle, be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him we humbly pray and do thou O Prince of the Heavenly Host by the power of God cast into hell, satan and all the evil spirits who roam about the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen

Praying Our Lord and St. Michael will surround you with angels.

Colleen said...

Thank you all for your prayers. They are helping me stay afloat. God bless.

little sparrow , florasita , sticklady , strong tree woman said...

Colleen I am sorry I have not popped in before now . I'm really still pretty sick , trying etc. but flu is bad here .
Your bio father is trying to pass his guilt on to you .
He is also trying to punish you for wanting him to own his part , be responsible etc.
Colleeen your bio dad is still an abuser .
do you not see it?
Colleen you absolutely do not need to carry the guilt of your abuser not changing !
It is also not your responsiblity for him to tell your step mum . If he ever is healed he will want to and know the why .
Now your role if you feel it is best for Colleen then you tell her yourself .
I think you are still mixing up the roles in your situation .
The way your father is still trying to control you and is abusive to you makes me wonder who else he is abusing .
This is my only personal choice in telling family members . I want my cousins , nices , nephews to be safe & protected from the abuser . I do warn them but Colleen I am fully prepared I may never hear from nor see them again .
This is a risk I can handle ;-) if I end up all alone with Him in the end because kids will be safe it is absolutely alright with me .
My family is not by bloodline Colleen .
expectations that the parent we needed back when we were children reality is they will probably never arrive .
being able to seperate the child me and be the adult me is very easy for me now .
I'm praying for you with ST.Therese Colleen I know you love her too .
Get this I've meant to tell you before .I love Thomas Merton too !
Colleen for how painful it is what your dad is doing . Remember he isstill trying to harm you for being you . See him for who he is a mean person hurt inside and he wants to hurt others so he does not need to deal with his own stull .
just step back and pray for him . When we pray for our abusers great healing comes for us ;-)
hang in there ! we all fall we have to in order to be strong . Look at all the stuborn headed people who say they don't need help and never fall and stay stuck .
Your friend is so very right God our Father never punishes us .Hard stuff , bad stuff will happen He is always there to help us . God never ever wants to hurt us. If we have done something wrong He merely wishes us to own and be responsilbe that is all . He then helps us deal and move on .
We are blessed big time to realize this think of all those people who truely think they are not loved like your bio dad and mine .
Sorry this is so long .
I've been thinking of and praying for you so just getting my thoughts out now .
much love to you . Your Sister in Christ , Roxie

Colleen said...

Roxie, thank you. I understand what you are saying. I appreciate it too. Isn't it amazing how we can fall back into those same old patterns and roles? Without even realizing it. I agree - Dad is still abusing me. Thanks - you gave me stuff to think about.

Patricia Singleton said...

Well said, Roxie. Colleen, you are in my prayers as well. Take care of yourself. Show that little girl inside of you who is still hurting the compassion that you would show any child. Love her like your dad never could.

Colleen said...

Patricia, thank you. I will do that - I will show the little girl within some compassion. God knows she needs it. God bless.

VICKI IN AZ said...

It is now a new Sunday, I am thinking of you and Praying for your peace.

Colleen said...

Vicki, thank you for praying for peace. I need that right now, maybe more than anything.