Monday, July 6, 2009

It's About Time

I was reading Eva's blog at Thankfully Chewed Up and Spat Back Out. She posted about her struggles with trusting herself, trusting her gut.
Amen. I seem to have the same problem, not being able to trust in my own decisions or trust in my own instincts or that inner voice I try to hear. Prayer may even confirm my decision but I still seek confirmation elsewhere. Like who knows better than God? Sigh. I am sure He is used to me and my lack of trust.

Ever since I declared my independence from my father, I have been seeking confirmation that this was the right thing to do. And I have received confirmation from many different sources, including many readers who have visited my blog and left comments.

I think it is about time I just trust myself on this one.


VICKI IN AZ said...

It really is ok, Trust Yourself,
God trusts You! He trusts us, that's why he gave us agency, and then, provided us with a Savior for when we screw up.
You are adorable, and if you weren't questioning yourself right now, I would wonder if you were Super-Human!!

Just Be Real said...

Alright and way-to-go dear! Amen! This has even encouraged me also. I too read Eva Marie's post and was encouraged by it too. Well done Colleen. Blessings and hugs!

Colleen said...

Vicki, thank you for your kind supportive comments. They help a lot.

Just Be Real, Glad my words encouraged you! Thank you.

little sparrow , florasita , sticklady , strong tree woman said...

Hi Colleen , I am just trying to get onto my blog ( competing with children for internet ) to write about Trusting God Our Father !
I too fall sometimes and when I do it is often into self doubt . not beleiving in ones self. In a world where we know full well we are often knowing and trying to die to self . which of course is very important but having self confidence and self beleif is differnt then self serving ;-)
I fall into doubting did He chose me . This work is so so very hard ( education of abuse ) is anyone listening , is it worth it , etc. it is hard not to fall into doubt when the work is such a struggle . Yet what is self doubt . doubting our gift of self for others is in fact lack of Trust . Ultimatly it is Him who chose us and it is up to us to say yes or no . I am not to question my gifts , how worthy I am , am I good enough , If He is the giver of me of my life then it is up to me not to doubt but to receive .
So I am trying very hard to accept who I am , who He created me to be and go on .
You are the best Colleen for Him , the one and only you the gift of yourself beautiful You to go out into the world and share , share of self be self giving in all Your beauty .
then let us turn to Him say Thanks . I'm thankful for You Colleen because in a world of unbelievers there You are a believer ;-)
just keep ongoing . remember you are not alone many of us had to make the same choices you have , it hurts it is hard but it is freedom and true Trust and real Love . on we go !
much love , Roxie

Colleen said...

Roxie, thank you very much. You are so kind. You are right, I am not alone. Trust is such an issue for me, but I pray for it and work at it everyday. Thank you for your support and encouragement. God bless!