Monday, July 6, 2009

It's About Time

I was reading Eva's blog at Thankfully Chewed Up and Spat Back Out. She posted about her struggles with trusting herself, trusting her gut.
Amen. I seem to have the same problem, not being able to trust in my own decisions or trust in my own instincts or that inner voice I try to hear. Prayer may even confirm my decision but I still seek confirmation elsewhere. Like who knows better than God? Sigh. I am sure He is used to me and my lack of trust.

Ever since I declared my independence from my father, I have been seeking confirmation that this was the right thing to do. And I have received confirmation from many different sources, including many readers who have visited my blog and left comments.

I think it is about time I just trust myself on this one.

5 comments:

VICKI IN AZ said...

It really is ok, Trust Yourself,
God trusts You! He trusts us, that's why he gave us agency, and then, provided us with a Savior for when we screw up.
You are adorable, and if you weren't questioning yourself right now, I would wonder if you were Super-Human!!
TRUST YOURSELF!!!

Just Be Real said...

Alright and way-to-go dear! Amen! This has even encouraged me also. I too read Eva Marie's post and was encouraged by it too. Well done Colleen. Blessings and hugs!

Colleen said...

Vicki, thank you for your kind supportive comments. They help a lot.

Just Be Real, Glad my words encouraged you! Thank you.

little sparrow , florasita , sticklady , strong tree woman said...

Hi Colleen , I am just trying to get onto my blog ( competing with children for internet ) to write about Trusting God Our Father !
I too fall sometimes and when I do it is often into self doubt . not beleiving in ones self. In a world where we know full well we are often knowing and trying to die to self . which of course is very important but having self confidence and self beleif is differnt then self serving ;-)
I fall into doubting did He chose me . This work is so so very hard ( education of abuse ) is anyone listening , is it worth it , etc. it is hard not to fall into doubt when the work is such a struggle . Yet what is self doubt . doubting our gift of self for others is in fact lack of Trust . Ultimatly it is Him who chose us and it is up to us to say yes or no . I am not to question my gifts , how worthy I am , am I good enough , If He is the giver of me of my life then it is up to me not to doubt but to receive .
So I am trying very hard to accept who I am , who He created me to be and go on .
You are the best Colleen for Him , the one and only you the gift of yourself beautiful You to go out into the world and share , share of self be self giving in all Your beauty .
then let us turn to Him say Thanks . I'm thankful for You Colleen because in a world of unbelievers there You are a believer ;-)
just keep ongoing . remember you are not alone many of us had to make the same choices you have , it hurts it is hard but it is freedom and true Trust and real Love . on we go !
much love , Roxie

Colleen said...

Roxie, thank you very much. You are so kind. You are right, I am not alone. Trust is such an issue for me, but I pray for it and work at it everyday. Thank you for your support and encouragement. God bless!