Monday, October 26, 2009

The Little Girl That Was Me

I changed the picture on my profile. It is a picture of me before the abuse started. I look happy and innocent. I want to remember that part of me and honor that little girl who was about to undergo the darkest part of her life. So I am using that picture for awhile so every time I see it, I can remember her.

12 comments:

Just Be Real said...

((((Colleen)))

Just Be Real said...

((((Colleen))))

Paula said...

Mill of hugs to the little girl and to the big girl too! I found that parts of my innocence became restored when healing. Like for everyone it was a long and rocky road. Best road I ever traveled.

Colleen said...

JBR, thank you for your hugs!

Paula, I agree, it is a tough road but a good one. I hope that some of my innocence has been restored. With God anything is possible. Maybe that is why I need to see the picture. Maybe I am finally starting to relate to that little girl. Thanks.

rox said...

beautiful

Colleen said...

Thanks Rox.

sarah said...

it's a beautiful picture of a beautiful little girl who eventually in spite of what ended up happening to her - turned out to be an incredibly courageous woman. Tons of hugs. Sarah

Colleen said...

Sarah, thank you so much. Hugs to you too!

Lisa Marie said...

What a great testament to that little girl.

I keep a picture of myself in my journal to remind me of who I was "before". That girl needs to be remembered.

Colleen said...

Thank you Lisa Marie. I agree that we need to remember that little girl.

cornnut32 said...

i'm a new reader to your blog...found it on the child abuse survivors network.

good for you for changing your pic to a "before" pic. my mom a few months ago brought me her favorite picture of me as a child--taken a few years before my abuse started. she gave it to me and told me i had to frame it and hang it up where i would see it every day. it is now hanging on the wall by my bed.

it's a nice reminder to me that i didn't start out "broken" or "ruined" and that little girl is still inside me somewhere.

Colleen said...

cornnut32- oh wow, you said it so well - to know that we did not start out broken. I have always been drawn to this picture of me. Pure innocence. You are right, that little girl is somewhere inside me.. Thanks for sharing and visiting! I so appreciate it.