Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Just A Twinge

I watched a beautiful moment on the evening news. A soldier had returned home from Iraq and he surprised his teenage daughter at her school. She jumped into his arms, hugging him and kissing him. She later told the newsman how close she is to her dad and she was so glad to have him home.
It was a good story. Happy news. But I felt that twinge in my heart. I would have loved a relationship like that with my father. Seeing that film makes me feel a bit sad. The moment goes by and I am fine.
But still.
And I wonder, does that longing for a loving, caring daddy ever go away?

14 comments:

JBR said...

I know that twinge to well too Colleen. ((((Colleen))))

Rhonda said...

I can relate to that desire to receive such affection sweety. Keep smiling!

sarah said...

I know what you mean Colleen...I had that for a long time. I don't anymore...It hurts like heck....

Colleen said...

Rhonda, thank you for your visit and kind remarks. Blessings!

Colleen said...

Sarah, thank you. You are right. It does hurt like heck.

Colleen said...

JBR, thanks for your hugs!!

Paula said...

I never have had it. I missed it for so very long. By now it is ok.

Lisa Marie said...

I know that desire. It is slowly getting less and less painful as I am able to come to terms with the fact that my relationship with my dad is just not going to be like that. It is not my fault... but his.

Lisa Wood said...

There is something wonderful for you on my blog when you have a moment please stop by and check it out ;=o)

Colleen said...

Paula, isn't it sad that we can get used to not having a loving father? Thanks for stopping by!

Lisa Marie, well said! You are right - it is his fault.

Lisa Wood, I will check out your blog. Thanks for your visit!

Sounds of Brokenness said...

Colleen, just came across your blog. I don't know you, but I empathize. Those happy moments of reuniting on tv always make me teary-eyed. I don't know the answer to your question. Part of me hopes that the pain of longing eventually goes away. But part of me hopes it doesn't. It reminds me, I am not her. I am not closed off to love. And although my mom is still here on this earth, sometimes I feel the need to grieve the loss of her in my life. And that's okay.

Colleen said...

Sounds of Brokenness, what a beautiful comment. I too grieve the loss of my father in my life. I need to stop fighting it and just accept my feelings. Thanks!

VICKI IN AZ said...

I don't believe it ever does. Not the longing which comes however frequently. The Lord does have a way of filling the holes created by life's inequalities and disappointments and grief. I praise Him for that Blessing.

I have followed a devotional speaker for many years because of his father issues he was so willing to share. One day the Lord spoke to him and asked him "Would you be the father who lost his son or the son who lost his father?" I am profoundly moved by this.

Colleen said...

Vicki, that is very moving! Thanks for sharing it with me. And you are right, only the Lord can fill those empty spaces in our hearts.