My talk on Tuesday went very well. I told my story and had a question and answer period afterward which went very well. It is the first time I have done that and it provided an opportunity to teach more about the effects of the abuse.
I am so amazed. The joy I felt in telling my story. It happens all the time. I wrote about this on my Catholic blog yesterday. It is as if I become this other person. Confident. Self assured. Joyful.
Maybe it is knowing I am doing what God wants me to do.
Maybe it is knowing that a few more people now know more about child sexual abuse and its effects.
Maybe it is knowing that I no longer need to keep this secret.
Maybe it is knowing that I can be the voice for a survivor who is sitting in the audience, who cannot share her/his story.
Doing these talks brings meaning to my life. As I told the women yesterday, I long to bring God's light into the darkness.
So whatever the reason, I am glad I can do this. Even though I become afraid and unsure of myself before my talk (and sometimes after as well), I am truly thankful.
Thank you all for your support and prayers.
Thank you, Lord, for this gift.