Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Let Freedom Ring!

Last summer was a summer of many surprises, joys and crises all mixed together! It was also the summer that I declared my independence from my abuser. It was right around the 4th of July so it has been a year already! I decided I would post it again, just in case it might help someone who has not read it and might be in a place where he/she needs it.
Happy Fourth of July to you all!

I am now declaring my independence from all who abuse me.
So many people advised me today to back off and separate from my abusers. And so I did.
So many people advised me today to take care of myself and my inner child. And so I am.
My sister said it was time to embrace those who care. And so it is.
I am often so good at being in denial. I am often trying so hard to be the good little girl, trying to please my abuser, trying to be perfect so he won't get mad at me, trying to do the "right thing." But through the crisis of this past week or so, I have discovered that is there is another way to be. And that is free.
There is freedom in truth and freedom in being real. There is freedom in being true to oneself. There is freedom in love. The honest kind of love.The real kind that makes us whole, the kind that does not tear us apart.
My eyes are wide open and I am seeing something I thought I would never see. I am seeing the truth. Truth has invaded my family. And those who want it or need it are thriving. Living free. And those who need to hide from it are in the dark, toxic to me and to others.
And so I will stick with Truth and Love and Freedom. That will be my flag.
Let freedom ring.
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11 comments:

Andrea said...

AMEN...I love this..."declaring independence from our abusers!" I am with you!
andrea

Lily said...

Let freedom ring!!!! I am working on this.. very hard. Just not quite there yet.

Colleen said...

Andrea, thank you! I am so glad you like it. Perhaps we should start a "revolution." Hugs!

Lily, I am not always "there" either. I think experiencing freedom is one of those life-long struggles. But as long as we are in the struggle, that is a good thing. Hugs!

Patricia Singleton said...

It has been a joy to watch you growing this year.

Just Be Real said...

Well put Colleen. I an with Lily too I am not there just yet. Blessings.

Paula said...

Whilst we are in irregular contact only I can read your growth in your words choosen qnd feel in the spirit of your posts. Hugs to yu

Marj aka Thriver said...

It's been a whole year already? Hooray for you! This is awesome. YOU are awesome! Do something to celebrate and reward yourself for work well done.

Colleen said...

Patricia, thank you. I am grateful for your blog and your support.

JBR, I hope you experience this freedom, even for just a moment. I do not always feel free but it is becoming more "real" to me.

Paula, thank you so much. I appreciate your support and encouragement. Hugs to you.

Just Be Real said...

Read your comment Colleen. Thank you! That is my ultimate goal. As for any of us. Blessings.

sarah said...

freedom and independace comes with a price. great post.

Colleen said...

JBR, you are welcome. God bless!

Sarah, thank you. I agree. By the way, it says you commented on July 5th but I just got it today! Weird! God bless!