Have you ever felt like a storm was coming? Not the outdoors kind of storm, but the kind that builds up within you. You hear the rumbling, you sense the darkness, you see some clouds.
I am not sure why, but there is a storm brewing inside of me. A little fear, some anxiety. It is there, just beneath the surface.
Maureen Brady writes in her book, Daybreak, Meditations for Women Survivors of Sexual Abuse, that she once heard a survivor of child sexual abuse say at a survivors' meeting - "My incest is bothering me today."
I think that is the perfect thing to say when I am not sure why I am having so much inner disturbance.
My incest is bothering me today.
And it makes me feel like I am not in control. I feel like a victim.
But the good news is - I know what I need to do. I need to pay attention to whatever is bothering me, take care of my inner child... be good to me.Then maybe the sun will come out.