Holidays are a difficult time of year. I love them and I cannot wait til they are over. A lot of pressure at times. I are expected to be someone other than who I am.
This year I am feeling less pressure though. I am feeling freedom from burdens placed on me by some people. Honestly, the only person that I still felt like I needed to please was my father. But no longer.
If my father wants nothing to do with me, then so be it. It is like he has released me from the prison he put me in. I no longer need to perform or act like everything is great between us. I no longer need to pretend that he is a good father.
I can just be me. Whoever I am at that moment.
And I can accept being me.